You don’t search for love because it will find its way to you. You won’t pick it out from a crowd but you’ll notice it in the room. You find yourself wanting to be with the people that make you happy. Some people don’t hurt you directly, but are bad for you. Some will cause problems later on in your life, because they are bad for you. Don’t waste time chasing people. If they end up being a bad one, it’s not worth it. If it’s a better one, what would you do? Sit there and contemplate if it’s the best one. No one can know where you’ll end up. Love finds it’s way to you, be grateful when it’s there. If it finds you, don’t sit there wishing for a better one.
I don’t believe in much, but I know I want to be happy. I try to water the things that make me smile, but sometimes I’ll weep and drown the things I care about… If I thought about you as a flower, I’d be so worried that you’d turn out dry. That our friendship would just turn to dust. Water would be attention, and I give it out too much. I give you so much attention, whenever I have free time I text you. Whenever I think about you, I let you know. I say nice things about you, and make sure you know it too. I don’t ever give up on making you smile. But, this is all me. What about you? What about the other person in the room? In no time, I’ve already filled the whole room with so much attention, you’d drown in it. I just want you to bloom, but I forget you need space too.
Everyone needs a positive, open and breathable space. Everyone needs to feel free. I know I’m in that room too. When I give out too much attention, I forget I need some positive space too. Everyone needs to bloom, and some just need their space alone. I know I always need some space all to myself. I can’t ever be with someone and not feel like I’m drowning in my own insecurities. I push people away instead of just taking my own space.
Honestly, I don’t know what love is or what it feels like. I know people care for me and I’ll care just as much. I don’t believe in it but I do believe in just being happy. I won’t drown this time around, I’ll keep trying to remember to breathe. To give myself some space. I need to be a little more patient.